Sunday, June 14, 2015

"We love him because he first loved us."
1 John 4:19

There is no light in the planet but that which proceedeth from the sun; and there is no true love to Jesus in the heart but that which cometh from the Lord Jesus himself. From this overflowing fountain of the infinite love of God, all our love to God must spring. This must ever be a great and certain truth, that we love him for no other reason than because he first loved us. Our love to him is the fair offspring of his love to us. Cold admiration, when studying the works of God, anyone may have, but the warmth of love can only be kindled in the heart by God's Spirit. How great the wonder that such as we should ever have been brought to love Jesus at all! How marvellous that when we had rebelled against him, he should, by a display of such amazing love, seek to draw us back. No! never should we have had a grain of love towards God unless it had been sown in us by the sweet seed of his love to us. Love, then, has for its parent the love of God shed abroad in the heart: but after it is thus divinely born, it must be divinely nourished. Love is an exotic; it is not a plant which will flourish naturally in human soil, it must be watered from above. Love to Jesus is a flower of a delicate nature, and if it received no nourishment but that which could be drawn from the rock of our hearts it would soon wither. As love comes from heaven, so it must feed on heavenly bread. It cannot exist in the wilderness unless it be fed by manna from on high. Love must feed on love. The very soul and life of our love to God is his love to us.

"I love thee, Lord, but with no love of mine,
For I have none to give;
I love thee, Lord; but all the love is thine,
For by thy love I live.
I am as nothing, and rejoice to be
Emptied, and lost, and swallowed up in thee."

"Thou shalt see now whether my word shall come to pass unto thee or not."
Numbers 11:23
God had made a positive promise to Moses that for the space of a whole month he would feed the vast host in the wilderness with flesh. Moses, being overtaken by a fit of unbelief, looks to the outward means, and is at a loss to know how the promise can be fulfilled. He looked to the creature instead of the Creator. But doth the Creator expect the creature to fulfill his promise for him? No; he who makes the promise ever fulfills it by his own unaided omnipotence. If he speaks, it is done--done by himself. His promises do not depend for their fulfillment upon the co-operation of the puny strength of man. We can at once perceive the mistake which Moses made. And yet how commonly we do the same! God has promised to supply our needs, and we look to the creature to do what God has promised to do; and then, because we perceive the creature to be weak and feeble, we indulge in unbelief. Why look we to that quarter at all? Will you look to the north pole to gather fruits ripened in the sun? Verily, you would act no more foolishly if ye did this than when you look to the weak for strength, and to the creature to do the Creator's work. Let us, then, put the question on the right footing. The ground of faith is not the sufficiency of the visible means for the performance of the promise, but the all-sufficiency of the invisible God, who will most surely do as he hath said. If after clearly seeing that the onus lies with the Lord and not with the creature, we dare to indulge in mistrust, the question of God comes home mightily to us: "Has the Lord's hand waxed short?" May it happen, too, in his mercy, that with the question there may flash upon our souls that blessed declaration, "Thou shalt see now whether my word shall come to pass unto thee or not."


-Charles Spurgeon

Tuesday, April 28, 2015

Things I wish I could remove from the world: a list-rant.

I eagerly await the demise of the following:

the Monsanto corporation
Lumber Liquidators
all McDonalds restaurants

while I'm dreaming, I might as well throw in:
racial and sexual inequality
anti-religious comments in social media

thank you for your time.

Tuesday, April 21, 2015

computer upgrade

enjoying the results from a modest computer upgrade- went from a 750 Gb 5400 rpm hdd to a 1 Tb SSD. it's pretty great.

Monday, April 20, 2015

same old same old.

http://www.popularmechanics.com/science/energy/g161/top-10-myths-about-natural-gas-drilling-6386593/?
I like this article, though I find fault with their underrepresentation of a frac pad on the last slide: real frac pads are huge and complex. This is a deeply controversial topic in my own family and in the nation. My personal take is that U.S. sourced Natural Gas is a vast VAST improvement upon the sad state of the U.S. coal addiction; Up to 90% less pollution.P.S. I live less than a mile from a coal power plant. I believe that American natural gas is about the best we can hope to get out of fossil fuels. I also prefer gas heat and cooking to electric. Solar panel streets are an excellent idea, though. Can't wait to see that happen.

On another note, I'm vaguely wondering if Western PA is right for us. Comfortable, but doesn't necessarily feel like home. Time will tell. Maybe I'm just a wanderer by nature. I love the climate here, but I'm not enthusiastic about the spot we're living in right now. Transitional. these are thoughts fueled by a lack of sleep.

Wednesday, January 14, 2015

another hitch, another two weeks without much created. So is life. For now. What I have created is a well maintained and beautiful piece of equipment at work. That and a family budget in the black. It's no addition to my portfolio, but it is noteworthy. Definitely not nothin.

Thursday, December 18, 2014

Four Years Later

So, maybe life got a little away from me. Maybe I moved three times. Maybe I got married. Maybe I'm just not the best at keeping a blog running. Here's an update on four years of Manifest Destiny:

In June, 2011, I moved from Anchorage, AK to Milwaukee, WI to see if I could keep a promise. I did.





In November, 2011, I took a job which was going to totally change the direction my life was headed in. It did. This job moved me from Milwaukee, WI to Vernal, UT. I drove an empty U-Haul with my packed MINI on a trailer (so I didn't risk damaging her again).



In January, 2012, I got my CDL-A with air brakes, combo, and X. I consider this to be my higher educational conclusion; the validation I had been pursuing through the six semesters of college I had attended was satisfied without a degree. To date, I have no further collegiate aspirations.

In June, 2012, we made good on our promise and got married. Many family members made it to WI for the impromptu wedding. Everyone was amazing at pulling things together in three weeks. Our honeymoon was moving my wife from Milwaukee to Vernal. The drive wasn't much easier the second time.


In December, we started to seriously explore the National Parks of Utah and Colorado.

In January, 2013, I realized that Utah was a wonderful place, which I loved, but it would be too hard to start a family there.

In July, 2013, I finally got the go ahead to transfer to Pennsylvania. Living in the crazy half of the U.S. again. Started missing the West as soon as I crossed the state line for the first time.

In February, 2014, my wife and I found out we were pregnant.

In May, 2014 I sold my MINI and bought an antique: a 1998 Subaru Outback. I love it.

On September 15, 2014, I got to meet my son.


That basically catches everything up. Work is kinda nuts, but only kinda. I'm progressing towards rediscovering the life goals I've let fall by the wayside these last four crazy years. I'm unofficially painting again.

Draft edition (in progress): On the debate between Free Will and Predestination: (My unofficial master's thesis on the nature of human suffering)

Current draft - this is a living document: On the debate between Free Will and Predestination: (My unofficial master's thesis on the nat...